Hello, my friend. I don’t know how you ended up here, reading this, but I pray it’s because of the same reason that I’m writing. With that, I invite you a little deeper:
My name is Rachel, and I love Jesus. I’m 25 years old, currently employed at Flatirons Community Church serving as one of the Associate Directors of the Young Adults Ministry.
I lived most of my life thinking that I was in control until I was a sophomore in college. It was then that Jesus came [back] in to my life, and showed me that I’ve been running in the wrong direction. I was pulled in to this crazy race called ‘chasing after Jesus’, a race you can’t win and you can’t ever finish.
I love the metaphor that is painted in the verses of Hebrews 12:1-2 (ESV):
1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
I believe God is real. I have to fight for that belief every single day, I doubt often. I’m far from perfect, and I will probably never be any version of perfection that I think I need to achieve. I compare myself to people and I can be domineering. I’m rarely content and I’m always hungry for more than what I have. When I get what I want, it’s never good enough. My insecurities can be crippling, and my need to be the best separates me from God in ways that I can’t always articulate. I isolate myself from people because of my fear of being hurt or loved and then disconnected, and I am afraid that I am a very self-absorbed human. This is my thorn, this is my sin, this is my burden.
Because Jesus is everything, we are free to be nothing. We are asked to do one thing: Love Him. There is so much freedom and security in that. I can rest in knowing that my love for God is enough. I am learning that I am worthy. I’m learning how to throw off the ‘sin that entangles.’
What would life look like if we really started to run this race, together?
I believe that there is infinite power in the simple belief that God is real. I believe that women are strong and have the ability to lead in ways they never thought possible. I believe that wisdom comes from the Lord and everyone has an abundance of it. I believe that God looks at you, and me, and sees potential in all of us. In every life stage, every difficult circumstance, and every heartbreak God is there and He is going to use you in your dedication and obedience to Him.
So, let us run the race marked out for us – with perseverance. Let us encourage each other, challenge each other, but above all let us run after God as an outpouring of our adoration for Him.
I’m writing for me, I’m going to share what God has been doing my life and process is a raw and real way – I hope you can relate to the insane things I’m surely going to construct. I have so much to learn, and my hope is that these words don’t fall on deaf ears.